Why I Write ...

Purely as a form of expression to the emotions that run riot in my life at different junctures. This blog has seen several title revisions that also reflect the state of being and evolution I am constantly in. If one were to remain stagnant in hope of never changing their temporal present, one will awaken someday to much regret. Life is about living, evolving and adapting to the constant changes all around us.

My spot on the web is essentially a journey along with my monologue ramblings of my coherent mind accompanied by the incoherent thing called life. Read me if you like ... if you don't it is not the end of the world. I am at the very least a believer in humility lifts us further than pride.

Happy trails

5 February 2008

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow Feb 05, 2008

Yesterday colours today effecting tomorrow ...

Is there any truth in that statement? I think there is ... more than one would like to admit, at least for myself it does I think even if I try my darnest to not be pulled down by a previous day's grievance.

Try as I might, if my yesterday had gone shitty, my today is likely to be coloured by the negatives of the past day. And even if tomorrow might be forecast to be bright and sunny, am likely to see dark clouds rife with thunder and lightening in my horizon ...

It's funny how we control our own minds and destinies ... (oh hell am I being sucked into the this mambo jumbo about Law of Attraction??) but I have noted if I make a concerted effort not to let the mess of yesterday colour the new canvas of today, and take the brand new day with vigour and excitement - usually today turns out far better than I expected.

Which then naturally sets me in a good mood for tomorrow ... even if tomorrow might be wrought with misadventure. That is a completely different day ... a whole new canvas to fill.

What then is the point that I've noted from all this ... living one day at a time ... I used to be the planner (ok ok I still am the planner) and it used to crush me to watch my plans smashed and awry ... now I make smaller plans mostly with how to just make it through another day. One that has no regrets or misadventures. One that manages to create some form of happy memory either from a laugh with friends, or a good day at application testing, or the funny drawings my babies do for me when I get home ... small things small pleasures ... nothing complicated.

Admittedly I do still allow the screw ups of the previous day sometimes to carry forward into my present and the mood is all down and I feel crummy but as long as I am able to discern that it is within my control to make it better or leave it to languish in melodrama, at least I am still in a position to make amends. Now that's something to smile about I am sure.

I like this ability to review my own actions. I find that in doing so, I can be a little more objective the next time I start to go all melodramatic on myself *eheheh* I can be a Drama Queen too sometimes *eheheh* but usually in the privacy of my driving hours ... there's no point in being DQ with others ... people don't give a hoot anyhows :))

Yesterday's lessons, implemented today, shape tomorrow - yes? A much more positive attitude I should think :)) ... yup yup ... I like this better ....

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