Why I Write ...

Purely as a form of expression to the emotions that run riot in my life at different junctures. This blog has seen several title revisions that also reflect the state of being and evolution I am constantly in. If one were to remain stagnant in hope of never changing their temporal present, one will awaken someday to much regret. Life is about living, evolving and adapting to the constant changes all around us.

My spot on the web is essentially a journey along with my monologue ramblings of my coherent mind accompanied by the incoherent thing called life. Read me if you like ... if you don't it is not the end of the world. I am at the very least a believer in humility lifts us further than pride.

Happy trails

25 June 2008

Mulling Over Something ... June 25, 2008

Women Are A Special Species - with a title like that you'd most certainly stop to read, well at least I did.

Well you see the owner of this piece is a guy :) and a Kopite at that (eeks!) so I figured let's see what he has to say. I mean not that I expected a ballad on the virtues of women. Anyways having read the piece and laughed at the comedy of the sister and brother, the serious anal bit of me kicked in.

No offense to Life's Like That ya ... this is typical .ani on some tangent train of thought.

I noted that the time of this discourse was 11am in the morning. It was bright, it was a public busy place. So I didn't get too riled up *eheheh* and I do tend to get riled up these days.

Now you if you'd done what I'd naturally do is to go read the piece, you'd be thinking what could possible be a reason for .ani to go all preachy - ahahha ok ok LLT is off the hook - he was reporting the incident.

What .ani has done is changed certain facts around and wondered in that instance would brother have upped himself and headed out to where sister was.

What I am trying to say is what if it was 11pm and not 11am. The whole scene changes now don't it. Be it Bangsar, or Hartamas or Chow Kit - the circumstances are now a whole different ball game.

This is the sister (presumably on her own) , it's 11pm, there's a flat tyre to be reckoned with. If you have any beans between them ears, you'd have guessed where I am heading to. We don't exactly live in Utopia here where everything is safe and perfect.

Given that in Kelantan this was the highlight of the day ... No Ban On Lipstick and High Heels which is great news I suppose ... I mean which girl doesn't like her lippy and heels?? But do take a moment to read para 5. In the morning when I was driving and listening to the news snippets on Mix.fm - the context of the report said that the ban on these 2 items was to prevent rape.

I guffawed so hard I swear I nearly peed on my pants (oops too much info!) ... I was like excuse me Mr. Religious Zealot - WTF are you trying to say here?

It gets my goat (eh wait a sec I don't own a goat!) every time I see this equation Rape=Woman's Fault - who died and made this the only reason rape statistics are on the rise in this country.

Did any of you read The Star over the weekend? Remand Prisons Allege Sexual Abuse By Cops - mind you these are the same people we are supposed to head to in the event of a rape. I'd not be surprised if the victim if still alive (some rapists are so conscientious they don't want their victim to suffer a lifetime of horror they just kill her - end of misery and therapy bills) ends up having to give these sick bastards a demonstration of how she was raped. I think we've all heard stories!

But seriously ... I keep wondering what is happening to the world today. The other day I had a friend of mine who is an Indian national with his UK HSMP currently stationed in Saudi Arabia ask me what the hell is wrong with us - he was refering to the the plea by the defence counsel of a father charged with raping his own daughter. The leniency plea was for the fact that every time he raped his own daughter he used a condom.

OH FER FOOK SAKES!!!!!! Does that change the fact you fooking bloody raped her over a period of time??? I forget what the bloody judgement was in the end but I think some snide remark was passed by the presiding judge - well thank heavens that much happened.

I really worry every single time I read one of this self righteous pricks and amazingly enough prick-ettes who come up with their illogical reasons for the increasing rape. Why always pick on the woman??

What was the last brouhaha? School girls' uniforms entice men to rape them. That got me super pissed off. If the damn prick can't keep his testosterone in check and his lust in check ... any fooking thing that looks like it's endowed with a vagina is so going to get raped!

Can we please in future wrap all female animals? Imagine the sanctity of this country held in check because not only are the women and female children hidden under layers of cloth and dying in the sweltering humidity, but all cows, nanny goats, bitches, ducks ... you get the picture - wrap them all up ... let no form of vagina be seen by any man for his lust might overcome him and he may then turn to raping animals instead because all the girls are so covered up.

GOD! If my information serves me correctly, there are also high rape cases anywhere and everywhere ... be you stark naked or hidden under some burkha cursing the day you were born a woman.

Another pet peeve of mine is the still practised female circumcision ... ok am no religious know-it-all, but I think we can all surmise here that the whole barbaric act is nothing to do with religion anymore, it's all about presenting a female that 'satisfies' the male's lust.

Anyways, I digress. My tangent type thinking does this a lot. The point I was asking was if had it been 11pm, would there have been a different conversation between siblings.

I don't know, wasn't there and not privy to their lives, but I sure hope it went along the vein that brother dear played knight in shining armour to sister who had the good sense to stay safe until brother arrived. I'd hate to have to read another tragedy in the papers.

A little inconvenience does go a long way in keeping those we love safe and alive.

~.ani is off for the evening~

Another Whack To The Average Joe .. June 25, 2008

In the The Star on the 24th, I read that credit cards would no longer be accepted at petrol stations ... I wondered when it would kick in. With an empty tank I drove into my petrol station and sat stumped for a bit ... they weren't accepting credit cards anymore ...

It's the end of the month and salary for me goes in at the very last possible hour of the last day of the month ... you can imagine how dried out my wallet and bank account is already. I wanted to cry yet again as I the average wage earner saw my purse shrinking even more.

Thankfully I had the RM100 I needed to fill up my tank for the next 2 days ... and the the next tank fill am going to have to start pulling the remnant ringgits out from stashed corners to make a half tank at least. *SIGH*

Read these links
  1. Credit Card Refusal Draws Ire
  2. Drivers Fume
  3. No Closing Up In Protest says Petrol Dealers
  4. Petrol Kiosks May Stop Credit Card Payments - 24th June
YAY!!! this is the kind of news I like to wake up to ... and it just so kicks off my mood to a happy start.

And you wonder why I have practically all the Chronic Fatigue Syndrome symptoms ... I am beyond fatigue at this stage. I am ready to lay down and die in some quiet corner. Soldiering on as I have the last 6 years has taken it's toll on me. But these are trials beyond my control, beyond my means to overcome.

How much more will it take before something is done by the government to help it's people survive. I am a single mother and I get no support or benefits or subsidies of any kind ( perhaps I need to be a of a specific race to qualify - am not sure anymore!) My purse is not increasing, only decreasing.

I've no more lifestyle to change ... it changed 6 years back and its kept tightening and tightening my belt as my girls grow and need more moolah for their few lessons I can send them for, to give them a rounded exposure to find their talents as well.

Anyhows, is there any point in me writing this?? NO ONE IS LISTENING TO US ... Makkal Sakthi whacked the government in March ... they woke up ever so slightly and now are whacking us back in EVERY fooking imaginable way!

GOD! give me the strength and calmness to make it yet through another Malaysia Boleh type day ...

~.ani is now officially self diagnosed with CFS - can it get any worse~