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Why I Write ...
Purely as a form of expression to the emotions that run riot in my life at different junctures. This blog has seen several title revisions that also reflect the state of being and evolution I am constantly in. If one were to remain stagnant in hope of never changing their temporal present, one will awaken someday to much regret. Life is about living, evolving and adapting to the constant changes all around us.
My spot on the web is essentially a journey along with my monologue ramblings of my coherent mind accompanied by the incoherent thing called life. Read me if you like ... if you don't it is not the end of the world. I am at the very least a believer in humility lifts us further than pride.
Lately I have been getting "whacked" for my lack of political perspective in view of our current sad state of affairs. Nobody has faith in anybody currently in power. Some believe the saviour to this malady is Anwar whose image is rather interestingly peppered with all sorts of accusations and counter accusations. Some believe Anwar is the devil himself. I personally only know that there is nobody I trust to lead this country anymore.. The paralysis of that acknowledgment has left me rather restless and despondent wondering how to improve my personal lot.
A tad self centered I know but seeing as on the political front that's acceptable and generally most people don't give a fook about others and it works for them ... I think a little it's all about me is not going to dramatically effect the fine balance of the universe.
Anyways, why the header of this post and if not mistaken I have previously blogged about this somewhere or perhaps responded to it on some forum somewhere. ( and yes PG-18 M I have a lot of rant in me!)
The dynamics of people interaction never ceases to amaze me. At times I am of the opinion I should keep my trap shut, the incoherency of my thoughts to myself and let slide what someone else is saying which obviously touches a nerve with me. But I fail miserably. Hahaha God having bestowed me with a somewhat working thinking brain and an obvious obsession to knowledge sharing, I jump into conversations free willy like and either am carried by the waves of acceptance or pummeled by the crest of descent and disagreement.
Hence, I try really hard to avoid conversations on the turbulent trinity - sex, politics and religion. But the damn thing is that inevitably one or all three will make an uninvited appearance when you least expect and everything that was going jolly jolly turns tense and flared.
I have seen perfectly happy gatherings turn into heated conversations that end up leaving a taste worse than bile in the mouth, metallic and repulsive and tight bonds lay frayed and mending is often something people are hesitant to willingly embark. The divide grows deeper and a death knoll subconsciously is heard.
Of late everyone is blogging about the sad state of affairs of politics in this country. Then the politicians decided to pull the racial card and when you do that, the religion card gets pulled up too and then supremacy of religions will be the next issue. Already sexual perversions and preferences and extra-marital liaisons pepper the news daily ...
Now one would think that these are all out there not really of any consequence to us at a micro level ... but ahaaaa how wrong we are. This lethal cocktail dribbles into the cracks and crevices of our existence and is shared, loyalties demanded and tempers flare and blood pressure rises ... and forgotten are the stupid politicians that were the catalysts like misadventures in a chemistry lab period. People are lunging at each other. Decency is forgotten. Supremacy of thought is now reduced to the primal instinct of survival.
I have some strong thoughts on the turbulent trinity myself. But I am quick to admit I am no theologian politician or sex therapist. Hence it is best to not take my word as gospel truth. Please feel free to disagree with me but if I am not biting your bait to prove to your injured ego anything you wish to affirm to your own conscience - leave me be. It means I have concluded that the discussion is spiraling downwards into ego preserving motives and therefore it is best now for me to find first exit and move along.
Perhaps the other person finds me iffy, perspective-less, ill informed, hot air only - it might have worried me before more than it does these days. Because largely I come to realise there is never 1 right carved in stone frame of mind or idea. And if someone becomes frothy at the mouth insisting to convert me to something they hold as gospel truth, please give me my space. Am I trying to make you convert to .anism? No ... so fooking don't even try to convert me to whoeverism you practice!
So my approach to the turbulent trinity is to attempt to the best of my capability to express my personal point of view (which I stress is a personal point of view) without offending anyone (I usually fail eheheh) and if people get all ruffled, I find an excuse and post haste look for exit. I thoroughly hate confrontations ... and instead of increasing the bile levels, I'd rather be laughing my guts out on some truly bawdy joke than hypothesizing if one religion is better than the other, or one sexual preference is evil while another is better experience ...
Am off to a hot cup of tea and teatime chatter with mom. Take my advice, the turbulent trinity is not something for the weak hearted to take on ... you'll be torn to shreds ...
Hang in there mates, the times are insane but not forever ... it's a state of mind and choices :)