Why I Write ...

Purely as a form of expression to the emotions that run riot in my life at different junctures. This blog has seen several title revisions that also reflect the state of being and evolution I am constantly in. If one were to remain stagnant in hope of never changing their temporal present, one will awaken someday to much regret. Life is about living, evolving and adapting to the constant changes all around us.

My spot on the web is essentially a journey along with my monologue ramblings of my coherent mind accompanied by the incoherent thing called life. Read me if you like ... if you don't it is not the end of the world. I am at the very least a believer in humility lifts us further than pride.

Happy trails

23 December 2008

4 Days and Counting .... Dec 27, 2008

Now where did all those days go to suddenly ... Christmas is upon me yet again and am I even vaguely ready?? Hell No!! It's been a rollercoaster of sorts this last quarter of 2008.

In September, my baby sister got married. In Italy no less with family and friends ... It's quite awesome to look back at how this feisty strong willed young lady has come along. My brother inlaw is either crazy or very brave ahahahah there is but a thin line dividing either ... heeheh but seriously they are awesome together and I am bursting with joy at their union. The church wedding was so beautiful ... the reception Villa was even more breathstaking ... Italy was amazing break away from the mundane routine of work work work .... I came back ready to dive into things but as Murphy's Law would have it, things have taken a sharp swerve into rocky roads ...

Divorce hearing dates keeping coming and going - postpone because judge on leave, postpone because co-respondent lawyer cannot make it apparently (then shows up) but anyhows judge is being transferred ... so another delay till next February. It's happening just taking longer than expected ... but eventually it will have to end ... Jacob and she know that - time to legitimize their creation ...

2008 started off with some old baggage being dragged into the year. Some have since worked themselves out. Others have sorta mutated into variables that even I have lost count off.

But the highlights of 2008 that I feel have been awesomely (damn got to find a new word I seem stuck on awesome ... sorta like a COWABANGA from the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles haahha remember that one???) refreshing to my soul despite several differing of opinions and misunderstandings cause even though we speak English, sometimes things are lost in transition and translation eheheheh..

Blog hopping into Uncle AD's blog which has introduced me to so many interesting new people and reconnected with some people from the past ... one being AD himself. I met my 'thambi' Kerpie via AD's blog, and Riddzy the snakeman, Anba the boy from Stone Elephant where apparently wildboar is the dish of the day **heehehehhe**, Achilles articles on health and fitness, Nanda and his views ... and even sitting in a mamak enjoying an evening of drinks and food with a whole bunch of die hard Kopites ... - that has to account for something being a Red Devil fan myself ahahah - wonders never cease.

Getting down to really knowing some really amazing (oh boy another word block here!!) people who have shown me what friendship really means. And indeed friends are the family we get to choose and these guys and gals have shown us that despite circumstances, friendships are bonds that cannot be broken by those who are unable to share in the joys. I've acquired brothers and sisters and 'inlaws' and nephews and nieces and sons and daughters ... that have shown me that despite the insanity that prevails in the world we live in, there is always hope that humanity is able to rise above all trials and tribulations and that love and respect for each other gives us a bond and strength unbreakable. Aside from my brother and sister whom I love unconditionally, I have to say the guys and girls who understand what 'Mission Control' is all about, you are truly wonderful people and we Georges love you all .... there is no such thing as strangers anymore, just family. And for all of you I pray that 2009 brings everything that your hearts desire and may dreams come true.

Malaysia, India, Canada, US, UK, Australia, Korea, Singapore, Iraq, Afghanistan, Iran, Libya, Pakistan, Azerbaijan - just a handful of places on the map ... that I have found friends and friendship that transcend borders and racial and religious differences. Just people who come together mutually respecting the fact that as thinking rational adults, we agree to disagree ... Often when I've been down in the doldrums, they have lifted my spirits and made me realise I'm not done for just yet - there's still fight in me ...

One such angel is Nazeen. She sat with me on my defunct 10th wedding anniversary talking and listening, she was with me watching the people go by after the latest postponement of my hearing and she's always a call of FB chat away ... sometimes, you meet people who just click ... I like to think also that I click with another friend from the past.

We don't know what the future holds for each of us ... so best is to just kinda ride this rollercoaster and enjoy it even if there are moments when your tummy turns all woozy and you get sick and even throw up ... my advice, clean up jump right back in and go screaming over the loops and spins and spirals and as you hang upside down before that skin peeling rush down the last bit of rail .... remember everything that life throws us kinda just makes us better stronger people ....

4 days to 2009 ... am looking forward even though turbulence is on the radar. I got my life jacket, I got my whistle and torch and my safety boots and helmet too ... bring it on life, .ani is ready for the ride!!!





2 comments:

Anba said...

Hai Sis ...
Hope your christmas celeb was great...
It was a great to be able to meet everyone 2 ..
Here s a cheerful and God blessed New Year to evryone...
Have Fun n Tc

akuani said...

Anba my dear,

Happy 2009 and hopefully we will catch up more often in the coming year - am looking forward to it ... :))

Christmas was awesome ... :)) you can check out my pictures will let you know where it is later :))