Why I Write ...

Purely as a form of expression to the emotions that run riot in my life at different junctures. This blog has seen several title revisions that also reflect the state of being and evolution I am constantly in. If one were to remain stagnant in hope of never changing their temporal present, one will awaken someday to much regret. Life is about living, evolving and adapting to the constant changes all around us.

My spot on the web is essentially a journey along with my monologue ramblings of my coherent mind accompanied by the incoherent thing called life. Read me if you like ... if you don't it is not the end of the world. I am at the very least a believer in humility lifts us further than pride.

Happy trails

2 July 2008

Forgiveness Jul 02, 2008

A wise man will make haste to forgive,
because he knows the true value of time,
and will not suffer it to pass away in unnecessary pain.
-Samuel Johnson, lexicographer (1709-1784)

How interesting the above quotation is? I wish I was a 'wise woman' then. I want to make haste and forgive all those who have in the past affected me at some level.

And I definitely concur with the last line passing time in unnecessary pain is uncalled for. Why should we limit our existence to constantly being in a state of pain. Pain in the heart, in the mind and just overall pain in existing with such unforgiveness annoying and gnawing at our sanity.

I am learning to forgive. Learning to let go. Learning to move on. I am ashamed to admit that it's almost like first steps halting and uncertain. Not something that comes easily when there is so much water under the imaginary bridge.

Am at a point in my life that closure and forgiveness and moving on seems to be what I am looking for. But it eludes me the more I try to find it. Should I then not try to find it, but allow this to take place in its own time?

Hell I wish I had answers ... and I don't!! I hate this so very much!

~.ani is in some mode where am angry with myself more than anything else~

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