Why I Write ...

Purely as a form of expression to the emotions that run riot in my life at different junctures. This blog has seen several title revisions that also reflect the state of being and evolution I am constantly in. If one were to remain stagnant in hope of never changing their temporal present, one will awaken someday to much regret. Life is about living, evolving and adapting to the constant changes all around us.

My spot on the web is essentially a journey along with my monologue ramblings of my coherent mind accompanied by the incoherent thing called life. Read me if you like ... if you don't it is not the end of the world. I am at the very least a believer in humility lifts us further than pride.

Happy trails

3 December 2008

WIWINWIG - Newest Acronym, Dec 03, 2008

Lately this has been a repeating sort of theme in my life. Forget the world famous WYSIWYG there ought to be another one that has equal notoriety which its WIWINWIG (What I Want Is Not What I Get) - which ironically sounds almost pronounceable as a word - don't you agree?

a. Happy Married Life - ahahahahahahahahahahhahahaahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahaha **wipes tears** we all know how that went and need I elaborate? No I don't think we need to. I'm going to go to court on the 10th of December and kinda just hope some sense prevails in there and I get some knotches closer to closure I've waited for.

b. 5 Figured Salary Before 40 - aiya this another failed mission to date. But then again perhaps where there is failure now there is opportunity awaiting. So I shall remain optimistic, I may need to move the timeline to 50 but then again life is is about enjoying the simple things yes??? In that case I am 10 figure rich because I have the love of family and friends and their support always.

c. Finding A New Man - this is probably the worst of the WIWINWIG situations. I mean the very fact that I am still just a 'technically single' already is complication enough, and then everytime I meet a guy I actually like and would be love for it to develop, it just sputters out into nothingness. It's like a plague that follows me constantly a dark evil shadow. And everytime the inevitable happens, I remember the old Chinese auntie who read my future aside from saying I had a bloody neon sign calling me 'SUCKER' on my forehead which made people feel totally not guilty for using me, I would never be successful in this games of hearts. I feel like throwing the proverbial blanket in and crawling into a hole.

But if life's anything to learn from, then giving up has never featured as an option. I mean I come close to giving up, especially when the self-esteem has taken another whack, the gung-ho spirit is flagging from too many battles - yes I've thought of giving up on what I want or see myself achieving but then again, I think God made me a woman because we're built for hardier things.

Giving up is never really an option. One knock, two knocks innumerable, but we pick ourselves up, dust of and move forward.

(I know I have been driving PG-18 up the wall lately by throwing all my inane thoughts and whinging on him and then arguing for the sake of arguing because well he unfortunately is the one available at all odd hours of the day. But I have to say, he's a dear to still talk to me everytime I say hello on Skype - God Bless your soul for putting up with my ranting and raving :)) - you should listent to some of your own advice sometime yourself PG-18. - Thanks buddy!)

WIWINWIG might keep knocking me down but you gotta pick a lesser mortal to cow or cull .... I'm just too much of a fighter to give up just yet.

Felt like adding this little piece all funked up from the original Canon in Dmajor by Pachelbel - enjoy the riffs ....

Hope you enjoyed that .... :)

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